Purification [2009]

by Jeremy Garner

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All songs written, recorded, and produced by Jeremy Garner*
*Electric guitar parts in "The Silent End" were written, and recorded by Shoji Swingstar.

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released January 1, 2009

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Track Name: Get Me Outta Here
Spinning, spinning, spinning
My mind round like a spiral,
Are you coming with me
Or just deleting my file
I'm looking up, falling down
Losing balance, looking round
So frustrated and irate
And I just don't want to wait
I am plagued by the darkness
So I search for the light
But I am losing,
I am losing,
I am losing this fight

And it feels like my brain is gonna explode
And it feels like my heart wants to be left alone
And sometimes I feel like I just don't care
But right now I need you to get me out of here

Is this a dream?
Sounds of laughter, sounds of anger
Sounds of hatred
Is this a nightmare?
Sounds of zombies, sounds of witches,
Sounds of demons
Is this a dream
Sounds of footsteps, sounds of knocking
Sounds of wandering far away from here
Is this a nightmare?
Sounds of screaming, sounds of war,
Sounds of counting,
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

And it feels like my brain is gonna explode
And it feels like my heart wants to be left alone
And sometimes I feel like I just don't care
But right now I need you to get me out of here

And it feels like my brain is gonna explode
And it feels like my heart wants to be left alone
And sometimes I feel like I just don't care
But right now I need you to get me out of here

And it feels like my brain is gonna explode
And it feels like my heart wants to be left alone
And sometimes I feel like I just don't care
But right now I need you to get me out of here
Track Name: I'm Gone
I remember I was there,
You told me I was wrong
And I didn't know but I was scared
From hiding for so long
I don't know what came over me
I don't know why I lied
Say what you like,
Think what you will,
There is no reason why

But tonight I'm gone
It's alright I'm gone,
Just forget me, I'm gone
And I'm sorry I was wrong
You were right all along
I am weak, you are strong
Left me to fight on my own
And tonight I'm gone

You left me in the shadows of your light in pain
Darker than the darkest dreams of night I wait
And all this time I wanted to believe in something else
But you didn't show up and you just didn't care
There's no way out of here

But tonight I'm gone
It's alright I'm gone,
Just forget me, I'm gone
And I'm sorry I was wrong
You were right all along
I am weak, you are strong
Left me to fight on my own
And tonight I'm gone
Gone, gone, gone

Tonight I'm gone
It's alright I'm gone,
Just forget me, I'm gone
And I'm sorry I was wrong
You were right all along
I am weak, you are strong
Left me to fight on my own
And tonight I'm gone
Gone, gone, gone

Tonight I'm gone
It's alright I'm gone,
Just forget me, I'm gone
And I'm sorry I was wrong
You were right all along
I am weak, you are strong
Left me to fight on my own
And tonight I'm gone
Gone, gone, gone

Tonight I'm gone
It's alright I'm gone,
Just forget me, I'm gone
And I'm sorry I was wrong
You were right all along
I am weak, you are strong
Left me to fight on my own
And tonight I'm gone
Track Name: The Silent End
Here in the dark with heart and soul,
We sing for all that's incomplete
When all your love keeps getting taken away
You start to wonder, is it worth it in the end
Is it worth it in the end?

How much pain we have to feel,
How much hurt left to conceal
Before we finally breakdown
People gathered all around
As we make our way to the silent end
To the silent end

This love inside us will grow
The pieces fall together as we move down this road
The life we have together now in place of our past
Our sadness and our hatred not created to last
To last, to last

It's time to break us out of here
It's time to wipe away our tears
Together we will be free
We'll follow all of our dreams
Light in the darkness,
Brightest star we will be,
Together we'll be set free,
Yeah

This love inside us will grow
The pieces fall together as we move down this road
The life we have together now in place of our past
Our sadness and our hatred not created to last
To last, to last

This love inside us will grow
The pieces fall together as we move down this road
The life we have together now in place of our past
Our sadness and our hatred not created to last
To last, to last

Here in the dark with heart and soul,
We sing for all that's incomplete
Until we finally breakdown,
People gathered all around,
As we make our way,
To the silent end.
Track Name: We're In Control
I don't know where I'm going,
But right now I don't need a plan
I make the roads that I walk on
As far away from you as I can
'cos we're in control, we're in control
We're in control, we're in control

I don't care what you're doing
As long as you just leave me alone
'cos I don't pretend to understand
And sometimes I wish all of you would die

We're in control, we're in control
We're in control, we're in control

I don't need your empty promises
I don't need your world of lies
'cos I want what I have,
And I have what I want
And I don't even need to try

I don't need to know for certain
I'll just say what I am feeling
'cos why should I care what you are thinking
If I've already made up my mind

We're in control, we're in control
We're in control, we're in control
We're in control, we're in control
We're in control, we're in control

I don't need your empty promises
I don't need your world of lies
'cos I want what I have,
And I have what I want,
And I don't even need to try.
Track Name: Everything's Alright
You don't need to understand,
Just pretend, just pretend
You don't need to compromise,
Turn your eyes, turn your eyes
You don't have to live their life
Be yourself, no one else
You don't have to win this fight
Everything is going to be alright
Everything's alright

'cos you saved me from myself
Now I can't forget you, I can't forget you
And I need you for myself
I just won't rest until you're mine
You made me see the light
When I was lost in my confusion
You simplified this life
And now you're forever caught within my mind

You don't need to understand,
Just pretend, just pretend
You don't need to compromise,
Turn your eyes, turn your eyes
You don't have to live their life
Be yourself, no one else
You don't have to win this fight
Everything is going to be alright
Everything's alright

'cos you saved me from myself
Now I can't forget you, I can't forget you
And I need you for myself
But I just won't rest until you're mine
You made me see the light
When I was lost in my confusion
You simplified this life
And now you're forever caught within my mind

But everything's alright
Said everything's alright
Everything's alright
Everything's alright
Now everything's alright
Everything's alright
Track Name: Song Of Love
Close your eyes and listen to the dream
I promise I won't let them get you
While you fall asleep
And as you look around this world
It really starts to show
Some people live for love
Some people don't

And I hope that you might think of me someday
Just to remember all the things we used to say
And when we're gone forever far away from this parade
I swear that you and I will meet again

Never let that sorrow bring you down
You know there's more to life than misery and pain
This world is never understood until you truly know
Some people live for love,
Some people don't

When I spoke to you at first my heart was broken
But you took me by the hand and sung to me
And when I heard your song of love
My heart was woken
But it left me with a feeling of despair

Never let that sorrow bring you down
You know there's more to life than misery and pain
This world is never understood until you truly know
Some people live for love,
Some people don't

Some people live for love,
Some people don't.
Track Name: A Man Like Ted
You're so immortal
And you just can't hide
All the wisdom that you contain
Though not as beautiful of course,
No chance,
Not as divine as She-Who-Must-Be-Obeyed
The difference though
Is that you keep on haunting me from within
When you're not really of this world
You're so invincible, invisible and unpredictable
I don't know if you are a boy or a girl
The best part is that you're just in my mind
Soon they'll all call me crazy
But I really don't mind
What would that mean?
What does it really imply?
Better hide, better hide with a better disguise
Before they figure us out this time

You'll never guess what is behind my pretty words and smiles
My body language, body language loves to tell you lies
No one likes to question, likes to question things these days
We just appear as normal when we're totally insane

I've got to calm down before you see,
This madness in my eyes
I've got to pretend that I am somebody else
I've got to pretend that I am nice
Would you ever suspect a man like Ted
To rape and kill your friends
He looked so normal, looked so kind
But that was just pretend
A normal family and a happy home
Meant nothing in the end
And this monster lives within us all
Trying to lead us round the bend

You'll never guess what is behind my pretty words and smiles
My body language, body language loves to tell you lies
No one likes to question, likes to question things these days
We just appear as normal when we're totally insane

I'll defend myself, draw a mole on my face
Take a flight to Chicago when I've finally escaped
We've all been pushed over the edge
At some point in our lives
Now maybe we'll start to understand
That the same applies,
The same applies

No one likes to question, likes to question things these days
We just appear as normal when we're totally insane
You'll never guess what is behind my pretty words and smiles
My body language, body language loves to tell you lies
Track Name: I Can't Trust You Anymore
I can't remember why you went away
And just left me here alone
All I know is time gets slower
Every day now that you're gone
If you'd let me speak these words
I want to whisper in your ear
Maybe you'd give this one last chance
Before deciding you don't care
But I just can't believe in myself anymore

It's so cold, I can't sleep
I woke again to my own screams
I'm so lost, and so tired
While you laugh, I just cry
I don't know what it's all about
I'm so confused and worn out
Don't make sense I am sure
But I know I can't trust you anymore

There's too much anger that is fueled inside
With everything you do
That I don't know just how much longer
I can put up with this truth
For now I'll walk away and pray to God
That we will never clash
I used to think things might get better
After time just like we planned
But I just don't believe in myself anymore

It's so cold, I can't sleep
I woke again to my own screams
I'm so lost, and so tired
While you laugh, I just cry
I don't know what it's all about
I'm so confused and worn out
Don't make sense I am sure
But I know I can't trust you anymore

It's so cold, I can't sleep
I woke again to my own screams
I'm so lost, and so tired
While you laugh, I just cry
I don't know what it's all about
I'm so confused and worn out
Don't make sense I am sure
But I know I can't trust you anymore

I need the answers
To the never-ending questions on my mind
But they're all just so hard to find
Track Name: My Goodbye
Nothing you can say to me
Will bring me back this time
Just wallow in your sorrow
And I'll stay here in mine
There's nothing left in this world
That's gonna change my mind
Walk away and leave me here
This is my goodbye

There's no answer, when I call
You can't save me when I'm gone
Take a look at all you've done
Turned your back on everyone left in your life

Let's dance

Nothing you can say to me
Will bring me back this time
Just wallow in your sorrow
And I'll stay here in mine
There's nothing left in this world
That's gonna change my mind
Walk away and leave me here
This is my goodbye
Nothing left to say to you
So I won't even try
Nothing you can do to change
The way I am inside

There's no answer, when I call
You can't save me when I'm gone
Take a look at all you've done
Turned your back on everyone left in your life

Let's dance
Track Name: Keep This Love Alive
Yesterday I only really wanted you,
Wanted you,
I only really wanted you
I wanted you here just for me
But now today I don't need you
I won't need you
I don't need you
Don't want to see your stupid
Ugly fucking worthless face again
I'm so okay without you now
Without you now, without you now
I'm so okay without you now
Know that you'll find your way somehow
You won't see me again,
Me again
I'm going far away
Gone to a place where I can
Accurately say that I am

Feelin' alright
Feeling so alive
Don't you let it slide
Don't you let it die,
Let it die,
Keep this love alive
It's okay,
Everything is fine
We've said our goodbyes
Nothing left to cry, left to cry
Keep this love alive

Feelin' alright
Feeling so alive
Don't you let it slide
Don't you let it die,
Let it die,
Keep this love alive
It's okay,
Everything is fine
We've said our goodbyes
Nothing left to cry, left to cry
Keep this love alive

Yesterday I only really wanted you,
Wanted you,
I only really wanted you
I wanted you here just for me
But now today I don't need you
I won't need you
I don't need you
Don't want to see your stupid
Ugly fucking worthless face again
I'm so okay without you now
Without you now, without you now
I'm so okay without you now
Know that you'll find your way somehow
You won't see me again,
Me again
I'm going far away
Gone to a place where I can
Accurately say that I am fine.

Feelin' alright
Feeling so alive
Don't you let it slide
Don't you let it die,
Let it die,
Keep this love alive
It's okay,
Everything is fine
We've said our goodbyes
Nothing left to cry, left to cry
Keep this love alive

Feelin' alright
Feeling so alive
Don't you let it slide
Don't you let it die,
Let it die,
Keep this love alive
It's okay,
Everything is fine
We've said our goodbyes
Nothing left to cry, left to cry
Keep this love alive
Track Name: Loneliness
I've been falling away from you
I don't like to feel this blue
Wondering when I'll be the same
Take away my loneliness, my pain
My loneliness, my pain

Sometimes I'm so far away
From my dreams, from my dreams
And when I think of yesterday
It feels much brighter
But that's just how it seems
I'm still lost inside this dream
With no one to hear me scream
I'm lost inside this dream
There's no one to hear me scream

I've been falling away from you
I don't like to feel this blue
Wondering when I'll be the same
Take away my loneliness, my pain
My loneliness, my pain

Sometimes I'm so far away
From my dreams, from my dreams
And when I think of yesterday
It feels much brighter
But that's just how it seems
I'm still lost inside this dream
With no one to hear me scream
I'm lost inside this dream
There's no one to hear me scream